February 2011
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"Stable"
Search “purge” or “cut” on Tumblr and it’s amazing the results that come up. Everyone is dealing with so much crap. It makes me want to cry for them, cry for me, cry for all of us. I feel like I’ve been beaten by depression. Beaten by cutting. I’m just a little bit crazy. Not crazy enough to die just crazy enough to be tormented. Now this eating...
My secret? Six Billion Secrets makes me cry
The Butterfly Project →
Cutting excuses:
Person: What happened to you?!
You: Duuude never ever try to hug a racoon! That was one crazy night!
Person: What happened to your arms? Me: Grating cheese at 50mph is NOT a good idea, aspecially if you have one of those cheese graters that attacks you!
Haha actually made me lol. I like this website.
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Complaining...
I know all of you guys are probably sick of my complaining ha.
I’m sure you’re like:
If I hear her say ONE MORE thing
I will seriously just
But honestly this is the only place I can go to vent. Lately, I’ve been needing a lot of venting space. So thank you for those who keep following and thank you for your kind responses with advice. I really appreciate it. :) See?...
Wow.
Just wow. So mad. I want to get in a fight right now and just let all of my anger out. I can’t scream or yell or cry or show any emotion. Cutting is easier. You’re so angry you don’t even notice what you’ve done until you see all of the blood. It’s like an out of body experience.
Progress
Day 158:I am sitting in the cafeteria waiting for class to start. I am proud of myself in a disgusting, twisted way. Today, I only ate a bagel and cream cheese (okay that’s a lot of calories right there), coffee ( around 50 calories because I put in sugar), and sun chips (210 calories). I figure I ate around 800 calories. I know I need to eat less to lose weight but I figure that’s a...
I read part of a poem in class...
“Those that have seen her have no thought what she is: Her face is clear in the sun as a palmful of water: Only by night and in love are the dark winds on it….”
Unfinished History by Archibald Macleish
January 2011
Watching Smosh open mail=laughing
During examtime..
The night before and being asked if you’ve studied:
Walking into the exam room thinking you know this shit:
Opening the exam paper and reading the first question:
Halfway through the exam:
Finishing the exam:
When people ask how you think you’ve done:
Getting your grade back:
Finding out all your other friends did better than you:
Waiting...
Waiting to go to school
I should be like this
but I feel like this
I would rather be in bed sleeping
Hello new followers!
Yay new followers! Thank you for following me. :) I hope you enjoy my blog.
Not good enough for you
I’ve been thinking…maybe it should be longer than six months for when we get back together. In six months I don’t even know where I’ll be emotionally. I don’t think I’m good enough for you. I’m afraid in six months I’ll still be in a bad place. I don’t want to have you deal with that. I want to deal with it on my own. I hope I’m better...
Eating Disorder?
I am afraid I’m developing an eating disorder. I don’t know what to do. I think I’m fat no matter what anyone tells me. I want to feel skinny. I guess I’ll have to talk to my therapist about it. I really don’t want to go to school today. I don’t feel like doing anything except laying in bed. I don’t want to study. I don’t want to eat. I don’t...
That horrific moment when you're about to hit the...
selling-my-crap:
Notifications are baaaackkk!!!
nothingsevergonnatakeusdown:
I killed all of my butterflies. :'(
Trying to dance at a party:
Expectations:
Reality:
1000th post
My 1000th post is for you. I love you and I miss you. I can’t wait for your letter. I hope you’re doing okay.
